And going to have a wedding some time during January.
But I have NO idea about venues, what to wear, food, cost…ANYTHING really.
I don’t even know where to start. :(
I really want a garden wedding personally, but don’t want some random overly religious people to catch wind of it and start ruining my day. Even though we live in a very liberal country, I’m still sure there is a violent minority who hate people being who they are.
Eugh…weddings are so frustrating. I just bought 4 wedding magazines and I seem to LOVE EVERYTHING.
Has anyone had to organise a wedding? How did it go?
EDIT: Visit this post for a longer list of dancers with medium and flat arches: Click here
So I was at work today and overheard a group of girls talking about ‘ballet feet’. Whatever they are…
While the ideal in the ballet world are high insteps and high arches, a vast majority of the world’s best dancers don’t have these. I find it silly when people somehow get it into their mind that “OMG LOOK AT THOSE BEAUTIFUL FEET!!!” is such an important thing somehow…
You only have to go as far as Youtube to find people saying things like “Oh I don’t like her feet…”, “OMG I wish I had feet like her…” or “Her feet are so bad/good what a horrible/amazing dancer.” Really?
The feet don’t make the dancer. I am POSITIVE about that. In fact…I’ll even show you the variety of famous feet in the ballet world.
1. High Insteps and High Arches - Svetlana Zakharova - Alessandra Ferri - Sylvie Guillem
2. Medium Insteps and High Arches - Aurelie Dupont - Marianna Ryzhkina - Ulyana Lopatkina
3. Low Insteps and High Arches (this is by far the most popular, but I am only listing 3) - Polina Semionova - Evgenia Obratsova - Diana Vishneva
4. High Insteps and Medium Arches - Natalia Osipova - Sarah Lamb - Daria Klimentova
5. Low Insteps and Medium Arches (there’s quite a lot of these people too) - Alina Somova - Nina Ananiashvili - Iana Salenko
6. Medium Insteps and Low Arches - Anna Antonicheva - Nina Kaptsova - Jiyeon Ryu
It’s difficult to say as well who has high insteps and arches since a lot of famous dancers like Gelsey Kirkland, Galina Meznetseva, Maya Plisetskaya and many more have worn falsies or actually had (like in Kirkland’s case) plastic surgery to increase their arches and insteps for the ideal ‘ballet appeal’.
I personally haven’t been blessed with the best feet - high arches, but low instep - however I can never understand why people would go to lengths as to get silicone injections and plastic surgery in their feet? It’s crazy! And what for? For the ballet aesthetic?
I don’t mean to be so avante garde, but hasn’t someone ever thought that this may just be ridiculous? Ballet is an art form, it’s not a modelling contest. It’s something we learn and then interpret through our bodies. We use our bodies as a vessel to communicate our passions, our understanding of dance and also the emotions and characters we are to present. That’s it.
However, so many people want to be dancers and far less people understand what dance is about. Or so it is becoming.
I’ll rant about the messed up modern ballet world another time. But for now, I hope that I’ve convinced at least some of you that it’s not the feet that matter, but the technique, skill, passion, expression, musicality and discipline of the dancer.
That’s right, I am out of hospital and free from anorexia at last! I’ve been dealing with this thing for almost a year and I am so happy to be finally free from the chains it had bound me with!
I was so happy to be back home and I spent the past 2 days going out and breathing the scent of life in the world…feeling the sun, smelling the flowers, feeding the ducks in the park and being in my husbands arms all the while.
I went to visit my ballet classes today and they welcomed me with cake and a small party. I was so surprised and I am so grateful for their efforts - I teared up even. It’s such a fantastic feeling to see that people actually do care and are happy with me now that I have recovered.
I do have some health issues involving my liver - a side effect of having anorexia. All of my other health impairments have been dealt with in hospital already - like ulcers, anemia etc.
Personally, I am looking forward to a happy and healthy lifestyle now. My husband and I have talked about adopting…not in the near future though. ;) My life is starting to pick up now, and I am so glad…and so excited! This world is so full of opportunity I have no idea where to start!
But for now, I am keeping mindful of my ballet. Still keeping up with my flexibility and trying to regain the strength I had…That may take a while, but not too long. I was told that a year would be enough and I would dance like I used to in another year and a half. Oh I do hope so…
However, the one thing I missed most when I was stuck in hospital definitely has to be home.
Home is everything.
Yes it’s an apartment that I share with my partner and a fighting fish. Yes the rent is ridiculously overpriced…But it has the memories that I love. It makes me think of my partner. It makes me think of a place of safety. It makes me think of a happy life and a happy future. And that’s what I want.
With this post, I would love to say to everyone who ever calls themselves fat - anorexia is imminent if you choose a bulimic approach. Don’t go overboard. It’s ridiculous. I saw so many wonderful dancers deteriorate because they thought a dancer had to be a bundle of sticks tied together with string. They’re not!
And I honestly hate when everyone calls a ballet dancer anorexic…it’s just lean muscle. I’m sure that a vast majority don’t throw up their daily lettuce leaf…
I know that when I danced I ate almost as much as my then-boyfriend-now-husband who is in the army! And I was always stick thin - it’s a natural thing. I mean…we dance 5 hours or more a day 5-7 days a week…that’s an INTENSE work out. OF COURSE dancers are meant to be thin.
So if it wasn’t ballet, why did I become anorexic? I have a life too outside of that. I don’t want to talk too much about my personal life, but I spiraled into depression that was brought on by a string of abuse, violation, being used and cyber bullying.
Before anorexia I attempted suicide, many times. So much so that anorexia became my only choice to kill myself because I thought - “No one can force me to eat.” And I was right. And of course no one noticed because it was happening slowly before their eyes.
The first person to notice was my ballet teacher. He forced me to quit because no dancer is fit to dance if they starve. The second was my partner - during a night of passion when my clothes came off he ended it there and we argued. In my mind it was because he thought I was ugly. In his mind he could see I was doing something very wrong to myself.
And what do you achieve with anorexia? Nothing. Death? Yes. Long, painful times in hospital? Definitely. More injury than benefit? Yes. Anything worthwhile? No.
And take this from someone who has been there. If you want to look ugly and have your body become useless in everything - walking included (how can you dance if you have anorexia?!), then go for it. Set yourself on a path of complete self-destruction.
Being anorexic is like being a suicide bomber - it’s pointless, useless, does nothing for you except kill you in the end and hurt a lot of people around you. If you manage to survive, you would realise how stupid the idea was and wish you never did it because the recovery is long and painful.